Fuck Coffee

I find the damn stuff repulsive. That doesn’t mean I don’t drink it mind you, I maybe have a cup or two once a month when I can’t score something better, but when faced with all the possible drugs in the world it baffles me that people are daily coffee drinkers.

It doesn’t even taste good without drowning it in milk and sugar. Plus every time I drink coffee I find myself spending an unnecessary amount of time in the restroom. Why would I do a drug that makes me poop when i’m trying to be more productive? Even when i’m just using it at a social event i’m still likely to end up upsetting my stomach and not being able to focus.

The culture around coffee is annoying as well. We’re conditioned that coffee is the acceptable stimulant, but god forbid we use some adderal or all of the possible LEGAL and SAFE nootropics on the market. I see a deep irony that we demonize some drugs but accept the usage of highly addictive substances like caffeine. Look I love drugs, drugs are a technology used to hack your body and it’s okay to use them as you see fit. However like all technologies there is risk and drug users can find themselves going overboard or getting addicted. Caffeine addiction, usually through daily coffee use, is just as real and concerning as nicotine addiction. It’s not cute when I see “don’t talk to me until i’ve had my coffee LOL :D” memes posted by anti-smoking, anti-alcohol or anti-marijuana advocates. Fuck you and fuck coffee.

The habits of the coffee-fiend appear to be very unhealthy levels of dependency. It’s rarely ever a good idea to use caffeine (or any drug for that matter) to pull an all nighter. Your marginal productivity will suffer if you don’t get a healthy amount of sleep. I’ll give you some advice, If you find yourself unable to work at night don’t make another cup of coffee, just STOP WORKING AT NIGHT. Go to fucking sleep, go for a walk or drink some water, just stop living like a keynesian economic model (artificially simulate now, crash later).

Coffee is dumb. I’m not gonna tell you to stop drinking it but maybe reconsider how you’re mentally categorizing it. If you think of it as more of what it is, a drug, then you’ll maybe rethink your habits and use of it. Hopefully you’ll come to my mindset. Fuck Coffee.


Asking questions to build connections.

Asking questions to build connections.

How do you have a conversation? Do you just sit back and listen? Do you spend the whole time talking about your favorite things?

If your goal for the conversation is to build some kind of meaningful connection with the person, considering asking them questions. Not small questions, no one cares about the weather, but big questions. Ask them if they believe in God, ask them what they think makes a good person.

Make sure when you’re asking questions that you’re doing it in a way that the other person is comfortable being emotionally vulnerable. If you ask a question about their political ideals don’t shut them down when they something fallacious, just listen and respond in a way that advances the conversation without making yourself look like a dick.

If you ask the right questions, you’ll find the conversation will be much more interesting and the relationship you build with that person to be much more intimate. People like to talk about themselves, so let them.

Rules for responsible drug use

I’m certainly no veteran, but here are some general rules.


Don’t self medicate

The fact of the matter is, it’s unlikely you have the proper background knowledge of the human body to self medicate in a safe way. I even would go as far as to suggest not smoking pot while depressed out of fear of building some sort of emotional dependency. Unless you’re qualified, avoid self medicating, one bad dosage could cause significant long term negative effects.

Know the drug

There’s a phrase that circles around my group that goes something like “your first trip should always be to the library”. What we mean by this is, before doing any new drug always acquire as much information as possible. Make sure you know proper dosage, what things are dangerous to mix with, and what environments are most comfortable for the particular drug.

Know thy self

It’s key that you make sure you’re doing drugs for the right reasons. If you’re doing drugs just to impress some girl you may push yourself to unsafe limits. Every individual is different and size, weight, mental health, etc can all factor into the intensity of the experience. Know your limits and make sure your usage is as safe and fun as possible for you and everyone around you.

Know your sources

Unfortunately legal barriers make it some what complicated to fully know your sources but it’s generally not hard to build some sort of relationship with your local dealer. Make sure you know the person in some responsible capacity and that you’re comfortable with their values. Some dealers are more entrepreneurial than others so quality and price may range significantly throughout your town.

Have an anchor

An anchor is one who keeps you grounded. Especially in cases of doing a new drug for the first time, make sure there’s someone there who’s sober enough to take charge if needed. Having someone to calm you down or drive you to a new location can have such a huge positive impact on your experience.

Schedule your experiences

If you’re doing psychedelics the night before having to wake up early to go to your office job, you’re not doing drugs responsibly. Always schedule out your trips and adventures so that you have enough time to recover. There’s nothing inherently wrong with doing drugs on a whim but impulsiveness is not always a healthy habit. Also with proper planning and you can make sure the experience is as fun as possible.

Thank you

So I’ve just finished the most emotionally intense 10 months of my life. I’ll be sure to write another post with a very full and honest analysis of my experience with the Praxis program. Before I do that, I wanted to take a day and reflect on all the wonderful people who have helped to build me up and keep me sane during this climb up the mountain of personal development. If I haven’t included you in this, don’t worry I still love you.

I totally cried while writing parts of this by the way.

To James Walpole – Thank you for being one of the most authentically kind people I have ever met. During the final week of the Praxis program you sent me some bitcoin which literally feed me for a day or two. I want you to know I truly think you’re gonna go far in life. I deeply admire your intellectual integrity, and though we don’t talk much, I’d like to express how much I’ve valued the deep conversations we’ve had.

To Kristina Miller – I know I put you through some shit, I can never fully apologize for some of the stuff I did and said. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for being so god damned open and honest. Thank you for helping me better learn to respect other people’s autonomy and personal boundaries. Thank you for being a person I can be, without fear of harsh judgments, completely emotionally vulnerable with. Our friendship has been one of the most significant pivots in my life, I hope we can always remain close regardless of what the world throws at us.

To Isaac Morehouse – Thank you for being willing to dream. Thank you for being an inspiration to many and showing the world that creativity and entrepreneurship are some of the greatest tools for promoting social change. It has been a deep honor to be part of your program, I look forward to watching you build the future.

To T.K. – Thank you for being a mentor, a guide and more importantly a friend. The conversations we’ve had will last a life time. It’s been a joy knowing I can call on you when I need help working through a philosophical issue. Your overwhelming positivity shines in way that everyone can benefit just from being in your presence.

To Zak Slayback – Thank you for being one of the original sources of my passion for ideas. If it was not for our early online interactions through the Libertarian Highschooler facebook page I might not have been so active in this community and subsequently found praxis. Also, keep being an assshole, it suits you well.

To Stephen Macaskill – Thank you for being the best boss and mentor any young idealistic entrepreneur in training could ask for. I’ve learned so much, not only from working with you, but from being your friend and picking your brain on life, business adventures and adulthood. It’s been a pleasure observing your social interactions and seeing how wonderful my next few years in life can be. I hope that regardless of where my own adventure takes me, we may always think of each other as friends.

To Jillian Batty – Thank you for listening to me on the rough days, and thank you for joking with me on the good days. Thank you for not being afraid to listen to my stories, especially the less kosher ones. You are a great friend, a wonderful mother and a fantastic example of living free in an unfree world.

To Megan Duffield – You are a true bundle of joy. Thank you for being your cheerful self even when everyone else isn’t in the best mood.

To Adam Castle – Thank you for being an inspiring individual. The weekends we’ve spent together were some of the best time I’ve had during these months. I know your passion and drive will have a huge impact on the world.

To the rest of my Denver friends – Thank you for accepting me into your group without any hesitation. I have experienced so much love and joy by being around you. I’ve learned so much from you about about living free in our day to day lives. You are all beautiful and wonderful individuals; the world is privileged to have you live in it.

To my Colorado Springs friends – Thank you for always being there when I needed an escape. I could not have ask for a more solid group of easy going adventurers. Every weekend we’ve spent together has been unbelievably refreshing.

To my Parents – Though you might not fully understand what it is I am trying to do with all this enterpreneurship/anarchism stuff, I would be a fool to ignore the overwhelmingly positive support I have received from you. Thank you for your continued unconditional love.

To my Sister – Thank you for listening to me bitch when I needed it, and thank you for holding me to a high standard even when I’m feeling intellectually/socially/morally lazy. The lessons I’ve learned from our one on ones will always stick with me.

It’s unbelievable how fortunate I am to have you all in my life. I will make sure I’ve earned it.

Religion: Killing yourself with prayer

Religion: Killing yourself with prayer

I want to stress I got a lot of great things out my fling with religion, especially some great friends and a lot of under the table style hedonism.

There were a few years of my youth that religion, particularly episcopalian Christianity, played a role in my moral compass and decision making.  My understanding of how one should act, especially as a young man was dictated by readings of Christianity. One of the most horrible skills I ever learned while religious was how to repress my desires and emotions.

There was a bible verse that really stood out to my young puberty-ridden mind, Matthew 5:28:  “But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart”, naturally at the time I was just learning to explore my sexuality, though, this brought me great grief. Many a night did I lay in bed, only to catch myself thinking impure thoughts which I would pray away. “Dear lord please help me stop having these thoughts, dear lord please help me stop having these thoughts” again and again and again, until I would cry myself to sleep from existential guilt.

Religion teaches this horrible skill of repression, take your natural desires, your natural passions and interest, and kill them with God. Pray them away until those thoughts are gone and you are no longer your authentic self but you are a mindless childlike servant to your church, your family, and your god.

This idea of repression of the self is central to Christianity and most religions. Angry and want revenge? No, you must learn to repress your desire and give into mercy. Not comfortable with monogamy and want to have an alternative relationship? No, you must fight these sexual perversions and never have sex out of heterosexual wedlock. Dissatisfied with your job? Don’t you dare think of getting rich, pray your dissatisfaction away and embrace meekness. The things that make the individual authentic and unique are to repressed in the name of purity. In order to love God fully, you must philosophically kill yourself.

It’s okay to be yourself regardless of what the God-Man says. The good aspects of religion are not worth the psychological damage you can cause yourself. If you have desires, don’t repress them, don’t kill your self with prayer, embrace them, be authentic.